AKU DAN KK KU TERSAYANG,,,

Wahh,, udah lumayan lama juga yaa,, ga buka blog..
ini apdetan terbaru setelah jualan komik2.. wkwk
yang mau gue ceritain hari ini adalah,, tentang bday gw kemarin.. K hfz kirim message via twitter ke gw..
ternyata dia masih inget.. aku jadi terharu.. :") ditambah lagi dy juga inget ultahnya Key.. yang bahkan gw aja kknya lupa sm ultahnya Key.. :P

Waktu k hfz ucapin met milad gw blg makasih dan bilang klo hari itu gw mw egois dan bilang IMY.. karena memang gw kangeeennnnn bangeeett sm dy.. Yahh entah sih.. gw kangen sm orangnya atau sm momen waktu sebelum dia nikah.
anyway gw blg IMY dan di message berikutnya gw blg maaf. dy bales,, egois kenapa dan maaf kenapa..
Messagenya gw ignore karena gw gmw jadiin komunikasi kita lebih panjang,, krn rasanya gw pernah janji sm istrinya.. untuk ga komunikasi sm dy lg.. ditambah lg gw juga pernah janji sm ka hfz waktu dy bilang persahabatan kita harus diakhiri..HIXXX gw jd inget dan sedihh lagi,,T-T
padahal gw berandai-andai bs terus sahabatan dan keluarga dari pernikahan kita saling kenal dan bisa berhubungan baik..(mungkinkah bisa begitu yaa??)

Setelah gw ignore k hfz krim message lg ngucapin met ultah dan titip salam dan doa buat Key.. dan barulah gw bls message dy yg kmrn karna gw merasa takjub sm ingetan dan perhatian dy,, atau jangan2 dy bikin reminder di hapenya lagi makanya inget,, hahahaha

whatever the reason yang penting perhatiannya tersampaikan,,^_^
dan gw jd merasa terharu bgtt,,

gw bales.. intinya gini... 'makasih.. keren banget kk masih inget.. aamiin buat doanya,, egois karena blg IMY dan maaf karena egois'
Dan dy bales blg..
'imy?? Indonesia mencari Yoo Seung Ho??maaf ga ngerti bahasa keroa'

Walaupun gw tau dy sengaja pura2 ga ngerti dan merasa agak kecewa krn sikap dy yg kekanakan tp sekaligus lega karena dy ga terlalu nanggepin gw,,tapii.. dy blg Yoo seung ho.. idola gw.. dan dy masih ingett...
Gw jd sedihhh tp bahagia.. dan mengkhayal sendiri...
Apa ingetan k hfz tentang gw dan momen2 dulu masih sama kaya ingetan gw ke ka hfz..
Apa ka hfz msh suka mikirin gw kaya gw mikirin dy..??
tapi gada gunanya bilang WHAT IFS.. karena semua uda lewat,, semua adalah masa lalu..
gw gamau tinggi hati dan mikir k hfz msh mikirin gw.. gw gamau seegois itu.. cukup gw tw dy msh inget ultah gw dan ade gw,, dan nama idola gw..
mungkin karena ingetan dy bagus bgtt.. gw ga mau terlalu berharap biar gw ga kecewa,,

Tapi gw jd ngebatin,, MISALNYA.. KALO AJA.. ANDAIKATA.. dulu gw ngeiyain lamaran dy dan nikah sm k hfz.. apa FATE , DESTINY, TAKDIR kita bisa berubah.. apa pernikahan kita ga lancar dan akhirnya k hfz ttep nikah juga sm mba meli.. karena biar gimanapun mba meli adalah jodoh k hfz,,
Atau sebenernya k hfz jodoh gw,, yang biar gimanapun kisah kita sekarang akhirnya gw akan bs bersama sm dy?? Ohh,, thats too good to be true..  :')
gw percayakan aja semua sm Allah.. mungkin jodoh gw nanti sangatt baik sekali dan gw jadi bisa melupakan k hfz sepenuhnya kaya gw lupain izzy..
dan gw jd inget dulu k hfz pernah blg.. ada seorang ulama besar yang mencintai seorang wanita tapi ga berjodoh sm org itu,, sampe pas meninggal ulama itu blg ungkapin kalo selama ini dy selalu dan selalu mencintai wanita itu..
Apa k hfz akan berfikir seperti itu tntang gw yaa,??
Atau selama ini dy uda ga suka gw lg dan hanya menganggap gw adenya aja..
Yahh apapun perasaan k hfz.. gw mw jujur blg ke semua orang yang membaca blog ini dan jujur pada perasaan gw sendiri.. klo sampe sekarang gw belum bisa melupakan dy,,, karena rasanya dy adalah orang terbaik yang pernah gw temuin.. MY VERY BEST MAN I EVER MET..
Klo gw berdoa biar suatu saat kita bisa bersama tanpa menyakiti orang lain,, apa terlalu egois??
kalo iya,, gw akan menyimpan perasaan gw ini sedalam-dalamnya.. biar Allah dan gw aja yg tau perasaan gw ke dy,,
I LOVE YOU HAFIEZ ACHMAD.. UHIBBUKA FILLAH...
Walaupun mungkin kita ga punya masa depan bersama.. gw cukup bahagia karena kita memiliki masa lalu bersama..
With Love...
KeyRa-Chan.. <3

I WAIT FOR YOU MY LOVE

I think I've been waiting for you. You who will immediately steal my heart.. you who will captured my eyes.. and you who love me the most.

I miss the way I'm with someone. I miss holding hands. I miss being blushed over someone. I miss to be wanted by someone.

My last relationship had already long long dead. But I still think of him who's not my ex. But were my very bestfriend.

I think I still want him. But wanting him to be the old him was impossible. So I doubt I still want him anyway. ←_← →_→

Now I'm waiting for someone. Someone who will change ME to US. Who will change MINE to OUR. Who trapped and kept my heart forever..

Please please please come to me ASAP cuz it's lonely by my self. Please please love me before my heart's all dead.

ITINERARY Singapore

3 DAYS TRIP TO SINGAPORE
DAY 1 : JUM'AT 24 Apr 2015										BIAYA (SGD)	BIAYA(rp)
14.30	Ijin pulang cepat dari gatsu.. Ga perlu siap2/dandan langsung berangkat ke Bandara karena takut kena macet. dari Gambir naik Damri yang jam 14.15										30.000
16.30	estimasi perjalanan 2jam naik Damri
	Kalo gbs pulang cepat/ biar aman ga telat naik taksi										50.000
16.30-17.20	Check in di Terminal 3. Sambil nunggu bisa rapi2 dan isoma. Bayar airport tax (150) bisa jadi tahun depan naik.										150.000
17.20	Departure
20.05	Arrive at Changi Airport
20.15	Beli EZ-LINK (harga kartu 5 sgd balance total 7 sgd)									12
	TOP UP EZ LINK									10
20.20-21.20	NAIK MRT KE HOSTEL DI CHINA TOWN 1JAM
21.30	CHECK IN GUEST HOUSE
	KALAU CHINA TOWN MASIH BUKA BISA PUTER2 SEKITAR GUESTHOUSE
22.00	ISTIRAHAT
DAY 2 : SABTU 25 APR 2015 option 1
08.00	MANDI DAN SIAP2. BELI OLEH2 DI SKITAR CHINA TOWN
09.30	BERANGKAT KE SENTOSA ISLAND
	MASUK KE USS (BUKA JAM 10)									68
16.00	KE Patung Merlion dan Marina Bay
	NONTON Wonder Full Light and Water Show DI MARINA BAY SAND
20.00	BELI OLEH2 DI MUSTAFA CENTER TURUN DI LITTLE INDIA JALAN KAKI KE MUSTAFA CENTER
22.00	BACK TO GUESTHOUSE
22.15	PACKING BUAT PULANG
DAY 2 : SABTU 25 APR 2015 OPTION 2
08.00	MANDI, SARAPAN, SIAP2 BERANGKAT
09.00	JALAN JALAN KE :
	PUTER2 DAN BELANJA DI CHINA TOWN, KE LITTLE INDIA, BUGIS STREET
	ORCHARD RD,   SENTOSA ISLAND
16.00	KE Patung Merlion dan Marina Bay
	NONTON Wonder Full Light and Water Show DI MARINA BAY SAND
20.00	BELI OLEH2 DI MUSTAFA CENTER TURUN DI LITTLE INDIA JALAN KAKI KE MUSTAFA CENTER
22.00	BACK TO GUESTHOUSE
22.15	PACKING BUAT PULANG
DAY 3 : SABTU 25 APRIL 2015
07.00	MANDI SARAPAN SIAP2 BUAT PULANG
08.00	BERANGKAT KE CHANGI
09.00	SAMPE DI BANDARA
09.00-10.00	CHECK IN PUTER2 BANDARA CHANGI
10.20	DEPARTURE KE INDONESIA
11.00	SAMPE DI SOETA
11.15	NAIK DAMRI KE GAMBIR										30.000
13.00	END TRIP

dLanouzta-I

So this is about Her. She left the group chat tonight. She was pissed, not literally wetting her pants but she was angry with the people in the group. she said "I thought you guys were my best friend" something that sounds like that. it was so hurtful to hear since I always thought that she's also one of US. which I cared about. but seems like she's too angry to care about other people's feeling.
Well I can't blame her to feel that way about us. there was also time when I felt the same. Got sick of it cuz of I was being ignored, no body cared, nor anyone listened to me. But even so, they're too precious to be lost. N it was always me who came back again and pretend as if nothing happened. I just love them too much.. <3

I wonder if she will feel that way later. I know her well, we have been friends since forever. So it's not that hard to know what she will do for later. I mean, she's kinda stubborn and her pride is soooo high. It will almost be imposibble(I think) to have her apologize and come back to us on her own will. She's the type that wanted someone actually begging her to come back, but who would do that?
I don't think someone is at fault here.Because she got mad by her own assumption, which is rather insulting(to me).

 So here is the beginning of all things. This -I girl got on an accident, and posted something on her Path's wall. some of us seen that already but didn't gv any comment nor even asked her condition. Just one of us give a sadface-emote but that's all.
Me, who uninstalled Path, didn't know about her condition at all and nobody told me. So I don't think I 'm at fault here. And I don't want to blame those who seen it but didn't gv a fvck. I mean not anybody active on the app. Someone could just accidentally hit on her post and tapped back rite after, before even read the whole damn thing. It doesn't mean we don't care!
I think it's better if she posted that all on our chat room where is EVERYBODY at. We must had give her a right attention. Cuz WE DO CARE!
So for now we just left her alone to cool her self down. We're all adults, and also a mere human being. Which makes mistakes but learn to it and survive.
I hope she won't leave us and ended up being alone.
I know for sure, she can't make another best friend like she did with us.
also I'm sure it's better to stay together in this sweet yet bitter friendship, than left alone.
Who wants to be a loner? Well, definitely not ME. Do YOU? :3

7/12/13

Hari ini mba epin nikah.. gw bener bner terharu.. :')
Selamettt ya mba kayuneee...
Abis dari kondangan gw tidur dan mimpi..
A rather sweet dream..
Here's is the story......
I'm holding hands with someone close to me.Rite now I don't recognize him yet. I don't know who he was but he feel so close and special to me.

In that dream I don't feel good so I ask him whether he want to hold hands or not.Whether it is okay to him if we holding hands.
'Could we hold hands?' I said.
'Why would we hold hands?' He reply.
'I just really want to'
'If you don't want to it's fine' I said that after and reaching out my hand to a guy next to him asking the same question. Then that someone special hold my hands instead. I smile.
At that time I feel really happy.
I really want to fall in love. Is there someone decent out there to shoot my love arrow at?

Aku setahun ini

Wow.. skrg gw lagi dijogja lagi..
Tema gw tahun ini "JALAN JALAN" men!! Skrg dipenghujung tahun 2013 gw jalan2 lagi.. kerennn bgtt!
The most beautiful year of my life.. :')
gw seneng bgtt jalan2 dan tahun ini gw jalan2 teruss.. ehe..
Jan pada ngiri yaa.. :9

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Happy Bday..
Idk since when,but my bday no longer special to me.cuz I realize nobody think it's a special day.except me.
No body gv me gift or sum special, Nor even a surprise party..
I used to gv my self comics..warped it prettily and open it once the day comes.
But I didn't do that anymore,cuz I don't want to expect high..
I just pray.. that Allah bless my life and answers my dua.
aamiin
Happy bday Keyra.. hope u a happy bday.. ^_^