7/12/13

Hari ini mba epin nikah.. gw bener bner terharu.. :')
Selamettt ya mba kayuneee...
Abis dari kondangan gw tidur dan mimpi..
A rather sweet dream..
Here's is the story......
I'm holding hands with someone close to me.Rite now I don't recognize him yet. I don't know who he was but he feel so close and special to me.

In that dream I don't feel good so I ask him whether he want to hold hands or not.Whether it is okay to him if we holding hands.
'Could we hold hands?' I said.
'Why would we hold hands?' He reply.
'I just really want to'
'If you don't want to it's fine' I said that after and reaching out my hand to a guy next to him asking the same question. Then that someone special hold my hands instead. I smile.
At that time I feel really happy.
I really want to fall in love. Is there someone decent out there to shoot my love arrow at?

Aku setahun ini

Wow.. skrg gw lagi dijogja lagi..
Tema gw tahun ini "JALAN JALAN" men!! Skrg dipenghujung tahun 2013 gw jalan2 lagi.. kerennn bgtt!
The most beautiful year of my life.. :')
gw seneng bgtt jalan2 dan tahun ini gw jalan2 teruss.. ehe..
Jan pada ngiri yaa.. :9

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Happy Bday..
Idk since when,but my bday no longer special to me.cuz I realize nobody think it's a special day.except me.
No body gv me gift or sum special, Nor even a surprise party..
I used to gv my self comics..warped it prettily and open it once the day comes.
But I didn't do that anymore,cuz I don't want to expect high..
I just pray.. that Allah bless my life and answers my dua.
aamiin
Happy bday Keyra.. hope u a happy bday.. ^_^

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Hi... I'm feeling blue,, I always wondering what life is? I got no life... always feel lonely.. I've got no friend or some mates I can be hangout with. My cyber life died long ago.. the only thing I've now is God.. Allahu Rabbi..
Am I too disgraceful? am I always been this pathetic?
If so,please God forgive me.. show me your light so my life always be bright..  show me how to be graceful..  show me the world with all of its warm..

Rahasia si cantik

I hardly mistaken something..  that's what I think.. because I have a very strong feeling and what I believe(my feeling) usually always been correct..
So this time I was right (again). This pretty boy as I guess actually is a gay..and his Bf is that one guy which he told me his cousin. I already found it weird when he say that guy is his cousin. Why?
Because, how can ppls with different culture be cousins? One is Javanese another is Sundanese. Be a lil smarter when ure about to lie pls... I perfectly hate liars..but only to this cutie guy I will forgive and forget about that lying things..
But why every guys around me are gays?? My my.. I became used to it already, as if I knew everything about gay things.sighhhh,, am I a pro in this silly stuff?
God please make my future love not one of that gay and please not let me marry any of gay.. aameen
#seems.like.it's.hard.to.find.a.straight.kind.superb.guy.these.days.

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Eheheh.. kok jadi ada hasrat terpendam nh sama si nona.. smh(/,\)

1-10-13

Sambil nunggu wktu kuliah mendingan ngeblog dulu.. hehehe
Semalem gw mimpi enakkk bgtt..
Entah siapa yg jelas dlm mmpi itu org yg gw suka.. (ganteng pokoknya :9)
kita main kemana2.. jalan2..nyenengin bgt dh pokoknya..
Terus gw mmpiin k adi juga (tp mukanya bukan k adi).. atw mgqn k adi itu org yg gw suka dlm mmpi.. hehee
Mimpi kn suka ga jelas n gw juga ga terlalu inget sm mmpi gw itu.. tp yg jelas gw inget dlm mmpi itu gw seneng...^^

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Even since He gone.. My life is completely messed up.. Idk what to do..  life seems dark.. I've no place to share my feeling.. I have lost my very best friend..  A half of my life.. Is it because I depend on him so much?
All I've done just talked,shared things.. but it means world to me.. now I got no place to share.. no one would tell me what best thing to do if I got problems..
Nobody care about me, no one I care about.
Amat amat.. you'll never know how much I need someone I can talk to.. I feel like I'm alone in this big world.. I no longer faith in God..

Amat amat.. since u gone I keep wondering What Life Is ..
You were my spiritual teacher, You were my family, You were my precious dear best friend, You were my sibling, you were my parents,  you were my everything...
Now you gone I feel like an only child with no parents,no siblings,no friends, no relatives.. an abandoned girl.
Why am I this pathetic? When I used to be a cheerful happy nice girl.. who look everything positively.. what am I now ?
A lonely girl without best friend I can talk to..
Ya Rabb Ya Rabb Ya Rabb... ampuni aku.. aamiin..

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How clumsy..
I don't even remember if I already took this subject or not..
Idk whats my reason studying in college.. all I wanna get is graduated certificate or whatever you called it. And for me choose Uhamka as my university was a big mistake.. or at least that's what Im thinking till today. Maybe my regret will gone once I graduated.I think it's better to choose another campus.the easier one so I can get higher scores in every subjects..
But I know God have plans this way I choosed must be right.. I believe it.. ^^

Thing I could never resist

Everyone must have things they couldn't resist.me too.. The thing I could not resist is COMICS.. LOL
I LOVE COMIC SO VERY MUCH.. :* :* :*
I've been collecting it since sixth graduate of elementary school.maybe the total is about 1 hundred now or maybe more.. xD
So yesterday my class finished early and I went to Gramedia to check if there's good comics there.even more good, there was bazaar comics. I searched good comics in a ton messy pile of comics. I spent 3hours and bought more than a hundred comics. Thanks God I still got money in my ATM.so I bought many of it and smile happily after that.. :')
I think it's a good thing to buy ur favorite things.as long as u have the money u won't regret.. ^^
Or at least that's what I'm thinking.. ;D
gonna sleep. Nite peps..^_^

You

The urge to faking to be someone else so that I can talk to you..
Cuz I don't think I have the right to say Hi or How Are You..
And I don't think I have the guts to do so..
you will never know how much I miss you..
all I can do is write this stupid note..
and 보고싶어 is all I can say, but it will never reach you..

#Whensomeoneactuallytoldyoutocutallconnections#